miserable life...escaping silence

my days are over...for these are not anymore
the plaiser,the life their gone
and everything broke the ropes of my heart
oh tired and sad eyes that so many evil you have seen
cry with such a big change
and you fake hope!leave me!
for you are gone of all my memory.
in the silence of earth where to be?
being declining shaddow of a tree?
habit inside great water sun rock?
i breed without knowing,i wish i could breed earth
of long and soft burning...
without sleeping i drown...deep,quiet,flower or leaf upon leaf
breading me,flecting me in opened interior...should i begin?
a face falls,a deep taste from water or earth
and unic fire consumed in air
...i leave...equal to the shoulder
where nothing is spoken
and in quiet...reach mouth in to space