Blog de joaocarlos@sapo.pt

equal to the gods it seems
who at my side is going to seat
i taste her voice plus the delight of her smile
that burns my heart
making him beat upon my lips
as soon as i see her
my voice breaks imediatly
dry's my tung between my teeth
my ears go deaf and i blind suddently
becomes liquid my body
i breed and transbreed at the same time
i see myself bloqued
i just dont accidently die

i wish i could open my heart with a knife
close her inside and close my chest again
so that inside of me she would be
so that nooneelse could live in
till day of ressurrection or final judge
she would live in me as long as i existed
between the dobles of my heart
even after i died
surrounded by darkness and sepultures

and for the first time in my life
if i'd shown her from really close
this wish from inside like oldness antecipation
of solitude and death
would life be like this?
would she leave me?
would she care?
i dont know
but i dont seem to care
this wish of mine,this desire,this dream
carring me till the end of times
till the day that im dead!

to fear i live,to fear i writte and speak
hey fear?why do i talk to me?
but still to fear i care
to fear i quiet
i find at each step an enemy
making me fear myself and my friend

above all you have the right to see me fail
with you i share air and space
where i fall between youre ironic
and sweetless face
you wont ever go away
youre here everyday
theres no try to escape
cause you follow us anyway
through our face descriptions
untrusts and reasons
our lames,our complaints
the courage that is takened away
day by day
inconsequent and instable
alarming fear related